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Wei Ying (魏婴) | Wei Wuxian (魏无羡) ([personal profile] weifinder) wrote2021-06-28 12:08 pm

Eastbound Contact

Wei Wuxian
missives | encounters
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this isn't instaboat

[personal profile] downswing 2022-07-03 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"I know."

No need for this, the gentle bone-breaking contortion of Wei Ying’s body to bracket gargantuan truths it’s too small and feeble to contain. Like the stretch of vellum until its muscled seams burst.

They have time.

Incipient panic, carefully cultivated so it stays at simmer and never burns to hit boil, can calm nerves. Once Wei Ying begins to taste his fear at length, he will enjoy it. Like petrichor: a great, inexplicable upheaval of the world around him, rough-spun and missed. Only the forensic evidence of itself.

Lan Wangji head dips. It’s very good.

"But you can tell me again." He will listen. He has a lifetime to learn Wei Ying's babbling, his uncertainties, his wonder.

The stench of damp plaster and thick, cloying, honeyed oils that bind a ship against wet rot, against storm agonies, until she is the sum of her adhesives, gelatinous. Shaped, but at once shapeless. Like Wangji’s restlessness, defined by the natural chitinous constraints of his sect-forged discipline. Like Wei Ying, leashed by his scabs.

The strip of jagged, trembled cuts on Wei Ying’s mouth screams at him like a child’s coarse stitchwork. Lan Wangji did this. He did it not. The black carcass of a hard wave crashes the cabin’s window, and likely floods the deck, and Lan Wangji has watched Wei Ying’s mouth too long, for how he can’t even flinch with its violence.

"I apologise." He’s said before. And Wei Ying, whimsy, Only a flesh wound. What are men but bodies? Scholars praise transcendental virtues, but death is the great, primitive equaliser, and it cares only for the sweet scent of burn in Wei Ying’s hair, dark sugars and cardamom. For the feel of him, soft and pale like a fish’s belly and so very brittle, when Lan Wangji’s two joined fingers peel away finesse and tap-tap-tap qi in pulsed rivulets to feed against rising circles of bruising, where he’d manacled Wei Ying’s wrist before.

"I want to bleed you again." It comes from him, the him who shouldn’t speak. Soot and sable. These words, he knows, are new. "Soon."
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boatik boatok

[personal profile] downswing 2022-07-06 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
Purr or rumble, it's a honeyed churn of sound, guttural, ubiquitous, "Mmmmmmmmmm."

Asset, dissent. White noise-shaped traffic of bids for time, mercenary. He offers, with nothing but a faint, pale glance, a price below the going rate. Use your words, but Gusu Lan prefers him taciturn. Cowardice lives silvered, cunning and strong, like a fox found, belly flat on the forest floor of Cloud Recesses.

He moves, inevitably. Snake fast, always the language between them. Violence. Blood. When he drags two joined fingers to tip Wei Ying's chin up, as if he were a horse on offer to a discerning customer, before drifting north — his touch never lands on skin, always refrains at the last heartbeat. Like a maiden-general, calculating the fine-pointed strategy of releasing the sight of another ribbon's width of ankle skin to the watchful world, while skipping a pond.

His fingers dance shadow over Wei Ying's torn lip, where stubbornness and sorcery have unstitched skin. Healing jagged, but well. A dark line, pleasantly seismic. He taps the lip's rim, once, to signal, then retreats his hand completely. "Bite down."
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seavine

[personal profile] downswing 2022-07-06 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
The ripe cherry of Wei Ying's lip stretches its skins, blooms under Lan Wangji's eyes, all soft wonder. He hesitates — breathes in the animal tension of the hunt, the stale, electric complicity of air circulated too intimately between two mouths, like mid-summer swelter and burned dust. Suspense sticks his fingertips stiff.

A heartbeat more, and the pressure gives. Fractures him like porcelain, in a rustle of abyssally flinched striations. He hesitates — and steps, and steps again, and does not advance on Wei Ying, as much as he summons the binds of his body from their stupor, calls his joints warm and his hands alive, and braces his feet down when the ship's next tremble nearly tumbles them over.

Later, he will ask, why instinct didn't propel him to stay Wei Ying's balance at his own expense. Later, it will dawn on him like copper mornings, that he trusts Wei Ying to fend for himself. (And when did that paradigm shift?)

This isn't that: the first betrayal between them. It's that he slithers his headband off like a winter snake's skin and wraps it around the span of each fingers' brigade and keeps the length taut. That he punishes himself and stretches the ribbon a barrier before Wei Ying's mouth, and leans in, to hear nothing, and everything, only the glut of his heartbeat like gallop on his temple. That he kisses the vagabond frailty of Wei Ying's mouth through the cloth —

sultry and sweet and nothing, no one, only shapes of wet and quiet devastation, is it so different, one patiently permissive body from another, a whore from a destined lover, when eyes fetter shut and hearts stall to a grind, what is the essence of having after decades of want, how do poets discriminate?

— and removes himself, one step back. Like a star traversing a low sky, at once natural and impermissible. They are married. He loves, is loved. It is right. It should not happen, have happened. It will happen. He cannot breathe.

He licks his lips and tastes the sandalwood afternotes of his silks. The room is thieved. The invitation. The opportunity.

Lan Wangji stole nothing. All is bones and splintered marrow and honesty between them, all is freely given. So often, silver spills between his fingertips like rain. He is too liberal, too hungry. Covets. Craves now, and clutches the headband still a straight line at the level of Wei Ying's mouth between them, and he regrets —

...the hour, not the deed. Not the person. What will it be, to kiss as lovers do? A man and not his memory?

"Your mouth had ripened red when you fell." Only, this was the Wei Ying of his feverish dreams, the ghost of his nightmares. "You kissed death first."

In the dead of winter, Lan Wangji would burn hot. Apologise. He wants to. Wants to speak words, and wants to ask them. The ship sways long. He thinks, gracelessly, to fall.
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[personal profile] downswing 2022-07-08 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
There is the caress of a bird-bone finger on his ribbon, weight so ephemeral he thinks, pettily, to deny it dip — to resist against it, his body so often a fortress against Wei Ying's evils, now turned jail.

But then, Wei Ying's eyes glisten dark like the backbone of a candle's wick just as flame consumes it, and austerity invites a farce of forms. In Wangji's hands, the ribbon is a learned instrument, snake-charmed — he weaponises it neatly, taking advantage of Wei Ying's exposed finger to wrap each end of silk around where root meets knuckle, then cross them over, and bring the headband up to bind the sharp hills of Wei Ying's wrist. Once, around bone. Twice, like a cascading moan, unfinished.

He knots it down — a rustic arrangement, to complement the sea that hurls insults at their ship, the timed cadence of the Pariah's creaks and wooden screeches that swallow them like maws unhinged. A vessel is a loud thing, an organism breathing. It does not sleep.

"Chase off the spirits of this ship, and you win the rest," he gives with his gift, and there's a moment of blessed pale nothing, when he knows all too clearly he has won a hand — that Wei Ying will have anticipated easy concessions or greed or rejection, but not playful bargain, not a game.

"If I complete first, you yield the match."

Lovers are flimsy creatures, scared of the shadow of predictability. And where is Wei Ying, if he is not entertained?