Which implies I did remember things, at some point, and mostly that's not true — the few I remember were faceless, shapeless, more impression than anything tangible, and then there were the few with you. What was it, for sure one before you left Gusu or something like that, another one much later, after you visited Yiling. I don't remember actually touching you. In dreams, obviously! And don't take this poorly, but for many reasons, I didn't think about those much at all. I don't know that I even remembered them until lately, and even that's hazy... I don't remember most my dreams, ah?
( the nightmares, he makes himself forget. the nice dreams don't startle him into waking, still fresh on mind. only the dreams of loss did that, and he never recalled those beyond the weight in his chest when waking, and he's not presently talking about those things. nor inclined to, generally. )
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( the nightmares, he makes himself forget. the nice dreams don't startle him into waking, still fresh on mind. only the dreams of loss did that, and he never recalled those beyond the weight in his chest when waking, and he's not presently talking about those things. nor inclined to, generally. )