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Why did you think I was seeing other people anyway?

I don't know, but wasn't it kind of obvious when I was getting mad at your nonexistent other lover for leaving you hanging that I had no idea at all?!

Your reputation. You spoke often of experience that you had, that I could not compare to. You also did not proclaim exclusivity. I asked what this meant and was reliably informed of 'Friends with Benefits'.

You get mad at any perceived injustice, especially those you care for. I was not certain that it meant you had any feelings beyond being angry for your friend.

My reputation based on what I do or the one everyone else says I have? And of course I didn't! I panicked! Then you didn't say anything so I didn't say anything and this is

so stupid

Lan Zhan we're so stupid

Mn. It is far from satisfactory. I miscalculated, I apologise.

I should have made it clear from the beginning: Wei Ying. I am not sleeping with anyone else.

I do not want to sleep with anyone else.

I am happy with what you choose to give me.

Okay, right, let's make this loud and clear: Lan Zhan? I'm not sleeping with anyone else either! Or anyone! Most the time!

And wait, wait, back up, what does "I'm happy with what you choose to give me" mean, anyway?

Understood. I am also not sleeping with anyone else.
Do you... wish to sleep with someone else?

I do not wish to sleep with anyone but Wei Ying.

I, uh. I haven't... I'm not sleeping with anyone else, I wasn't planning to? Just, let me think, I'm a little... thoughts are all over the place.

Lan Zhan. Did you want to date? In the exclusive sense. Just you and me?

You can take your time Wei Ying. I am good at waiting. Especially for you.

Yes, but only if that is what you want.

Why would I know what I want, I hadn't even--wait wait if we date then you're going to be telling your brother about our continued sex life?

[ Ah. ]

What do you mean you 'hadn't even'?
He asks, he talks to me about every thing in his life. He likes it when I contribute.

Hadn't even thought it would matter.

Wait, I keep saying wait, there's a lot of things breaking my brain right now, you're both sharing your sex lives with each other.

... Except I'm the asshole in yours?

You have met Xichen. He overshares, it is not up to me.
I merely asked him two questions and he asked me questions for two weeks. I am not explicit.

You are not an asshole.

It sure sounds like I am... Lan Zhan, I don't really care what you share with your brother, that's your business anyway, I'm just... confused? Overwhelmed. At a loss?

Look, are we going to date or are we not?

No. Merely misunderstood. He thinks I am as much to blame as you are, I should have made myself clearer before.
I would not discuss it if you asked me not to share the details, it is your privacy as well as mine.

Are you alright Wei Ying?

Yes. Would you like to go on a date with me Wei Ying? I have many options for you to choose from.

Oh. That's, ah, better, or worse, I can't decide.

I'm fine! Everything's fine. I'm texting with you and everything is fine!

Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan, is that a yes to we're dating, or a yes to you want to go on dates, I feel like there's a difference? Or, wait, is it, dating only each other or dates you just want to do or

( help )

Better in the shared blame. I cannot speak one way or another for the level of detail, no matter how much he asked, so better for that too. Worse for how long it took for us to get here.

...Wei Ying. Do not lie.

Wei Ying have I not made my interest in you more than obvious? You are the only person I have been, or ever will be, interested in dating.

I'm clarifying! Clarifying! Today's been a very unexpected day! My head's spinning, give me a moment here

I am sorry.

Take all the time you need, I will still be here when you have recovered.

[ This is fine. This is...fine. He is not upset. Wei Ying needs time. ]

Call me in half an hour okay?

[ It is thirty one minutes later. The phone rings. ]

Lan Zhan?

Mn.

[ A soft exhale. ]

Wei Ying.

( So many thoughts he's cycled through and shunted off to the side in the last half hour; enough to now breathe in and smile when he says. )

So. We're dating now?

( Smooth as sandpaper askjfads )

I mean that's what you were saying... maybe? Right? I am getting this right, right?

[ God. Why does he love this man so much, this is excruciating. ]

Yes. Unless you object.

[ A small exhale that is not a sigh, but not too far from it. ]

I would like to date you.

( What's worse is you were waiting on him to get a clue

Fool )

I don't object! I don't, I didn't say I was. This is—hahaha, it's a surprise, but the good kind. What does it change anyway?

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